..S.a.r.i.n.a..

Im so lost, how am i supose to do this?  how will i achieve living the way i want to?

when your brought up in a certan class in society..the upper middle class, parents with Phd.'s in psycology..always living in big houses, always having money to travel and do whatever.  Some people want to keep in that class. getting higher educations, so they can earn money and keep on living the way they always do.   But, just as less fortunate people strive for higher educations to break away from the way of life they were brought up in, so do i feel i want to do. I dont feel the need to live in this higher society and make lots of money.  I just want to live somewhere were i will be happy and have a job that will pay my bills, and just enjoy the life experiences life throws at me.

If i could choose, i would love to live along the beach at a remote place, maybe..new zeeland..or hawaii. or even along the coast of california, and just have a job where i get to meet people, and get to experience life.  (not sit in an office all day)
That is truly what my heart desires.

At the same time, I feel guilty. I was granted oppertunities in life, that alot of people dont have. I have the chance and possibility to get a higher education and get a good paying job and get a good place in society. But i dont want it.

But my parents work so hard to grant us all these oppertunities, and i just dont want it. ( i've been that way since i was a kid, i never wanted anything from them)

So what if i did decide to live the way i want to. I would have no idea where to start, or how to achieve it. It seems as picking the higher education and the way of life that i actually dont want is so much more easier that doing what i actually want.

I just dont know what to do. im so torn.