If only you knew
Vulnerbility is the scariest thing for me.
Being so open and fragile...knowing if you got hurt it would crush you to pieces.
So why do i do it?....My mind seems to see everything as an adventure, even the scary parts...
-especially the scary parts
The one thing i cant seem to understand...after all this time of being locked up behind these thorn bushes...what the hell made me crawl through to the otherside...standing there without anything to hide behind?
-silly little girl, you must have lost your mind
One thing is for sure...i like the view from here..i see better without those thorns blocking my sight. I feel the sun on me, it leaves a constant smile on my face, its comforting.
-Ive left it in your hands, sorry i put this burden on you
shitshitshitshit
-haha
Being so open and fragile...knowing if you got hurt it would crush you to pieces.
So why do i do it?....My mind seems to see everything as an adventure, even the scary parts...
-especially the scary parts
The one thing i cant seem to understand...after all this time of being locked up behind these thorn bushes...what the hell made me crawl through to the otherside...standing there without anything to hide behind?
-silly little girl, you must have lost your mind
One thing is for sure...i like the view from here..i see better without those thorns blocking my sight. I feel the sun on me, it leaves a constant smile on my face, its comforting.
-Ive left it in your hands, sorry i put this burden on you
shitshitshitshit
-haha
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My Dearest Allie,
I couldn't sleep last night because I know that it's over between us. I'm not bitter anymore, because I know that what we had was real. And if in some distant place in the future we see each other in our new lives, I'll smile at you with joy and remember how we spent the summer beneath the trees, learning from each other and growing in love. The best love is the kind that awakens the soul and makes us reach for more, that plants a fire in our hearts and brings peace to our minds, and that's what you've given me. That's what I hope to give to you forever. I love you. I'll be seeing you.
-Noah
careface
WHY DO I CARE SO MUCH?!
I just want to not care....is that so fucking hard?
fuck me and my fucking caring!
why am i not numb yet? this is taking to long
careface/:delete
There is only so much i can give,without getting anything back
-I've reached my limit
I just want to not care....is that so fucking hard?
fuck me and my fucking caring!
why am i not numb yet? this is taking to long
careface/:delete
There is only so much i can give,without getting anything back
-I've reached my limit
Controle
I never saw a point in worrying about how things are going to end up. I mean..its not really in your controle is it? Things just kinda....happen. You can do your part to try and get it the way you want it...but in the end, nothing is really in your controle.
Its all about timing. As one of Isaak Newtons laws of physics states, "Every acction has a equal but opposite reaction" -atleast i learnet something in school.
So fundementally, everything anyone does, and everything you do, has a reaction on everyone in the entire world. Its like we are living in this web. Where every choice we make effects something else. Think about it.
So really, what is the point of worrying about anything? its not like you can controle it. You do your part, and then you just......see what happens.
Its all about timing. As one of Isaak Newtons laws of physics states, "Every acction has a equal but opposite reaction" -atleast i learnet something in school.
So fundementally, everything anyone does, and everything you do, has a reaction on everyone in the entire world. Its like we are living in this web. Where every choice we make effects something else. Think about it.
So really, what is the point of worrying about anything? its not like you can controle it. You do your part, and then you just......see what happens.
You will get further in life with a smile on your face
Electricity
My almond shaped eyes linger at your smile while my blood flustered cheecks bear the essence of your last kiss.
Your warm breath flutters on my neck like a million butterflies, causing a chemical avalanche of serotonin in my brain showering over my body, as your soft hands gently brush my hair off my bare shoulders.
Time seems of an essence as we are surrounded with darkness.
I only see the angel like light of your face.
Your sky blue eyes, your perfectly soft lips, and your strong jaw stating your exquisite masculinity.
They all speak to me, like magnets to my fingertips, i feel the urge to lightly trace my fingers across your face.
My heart beats faster and more intense like the drums from an African tribe deep inside the jungle.
As i move my warm lips closer to yours, the electricity between our bare flustered skins is so intense it could power a whole village.
I see your eyelashes flutter repeatedly like strands of golden strings.
I feel the heat from your warm body so close to mine.
Nothing has ever felt this perfect.
Wait dont go....
The light of your face disappears, It seems like the darkness that was just surrounding us showered over my little grimpse of heaven.
I dont see you anymore, there is no warmth from your breath, no electricity from your skin.
A cold wind sweeps over my chest, causing all the tiny strands of hair on the back of my neck to rise, resulting in a ice like shiver down my spine.
I feel empty, I feel nothing, you're gone..
But wait!
In the depths of the darkness somewhere far out there i see a tiny glimpse of light
You're back..!
My heart starts to beat faster again and my lust for you grows stronger.
As i focus on the light, waiting to see your perfect smile and feel your presence once again, the light grows bigger and brighter.
I reach out and open my eyes and i see the familiar sight of my bedroom wall, I see the blue color of my pillow, I see my brown wooden desk, i see my bed.
And even though for a tenth of a second i believe you are right there with me, reality hits me like an icy wind slaps my face on a cold autumn night.
Fuck...I'm awake.
- and yes i wrote it
Your warm breath flutters on my neck like a million butterflies, causing a chemical avalanche of serotonin in my brain showering over my body, as your soft hands gently brush my hair off my bare shoulders.
Time seems of an essence as we are surrounded with darkness.
I only see the angel like light of your face.
Your sky blue eyes, your perfectly soft lips, and your strong jaw stating your exquisite masculinity.
They all speak to me, like magnets to my fingertips, i feel the urge to lightly trace my fingers across your face.
My heart beats faster and more intense like the drums from an African tribe deep inside the jungle.
As i move my warm lips closer to yours, the electricity between our bare flustered skins is so intense it could power a whole village.
I see your eyelashes flutter repeatedly like strands of golden strings.
I feel the heat from your warm body so close to mine.
Nothing has ever felt this perfect.
Wait dont go....
The light of your face disappears, It seems like the darkness that was just surrounding us showered over my little grimpse of heaven.
I dont see you anymore, there is no warmth from your breath, no electricity from your skin.
A cold wind sweeps over my chest, causing all the tiny strands of hair on the back of my neck to rise, resulting in a ice like shiver down my spine.
I feel empty, I feel nothing, you're gone..
But wait!
In the depths of the darkness somewhere far out there i see a tiny glimpse of light
You're back..!
My heart starts to beat faster again and my lust for you grows stronger.
As i focus on the light, waiting to see your perfect smile and feel your presence once again, the light grows bigger and brighter.
I reach out and open my eyes and i see the familiar sight of my bedroom wall, I see the blue color of my pillow, I see my brown wooden desk, i see my bed.
And even though for a tenth of a second i believe you are right there with me, reality hits me like an icy wind slaps my face on a cold autumn night.
Fuck...I'm awake.
- and yes i wrote it