..S.a.r.i.n.a..

So i broke up with chris today....it was hard, one of the hardest things. But i had to do it. I couldn't just keep on pretending anymore, pretending that whenever he said "i love you" i dident feel uncomfortable, pretending that whenever i say "i love you" that i dident feel guilty for not being true to me or him. pretending that i often dident feel trapped, pretending that i was completly happy.

I mean i still care for him, he will always have a place in my hear, just a different place. I had to do this for myself. i have to find out what i want, and i cant let anything get in my way.

And no i dident just throw away a 2 year relationship. we had an incredible 2 years, and we will always have those 2 years, they just dont dissapear. They will always be there whenever we look back on our path of life.

I dont know what the future holds, if there is something ive learned from chris is to not plan ahead. So thats how im living my life now.

Life Is A Series Of Decisions And Experiences.

-lets see what my next adventure has for me.

Today i woke up at chris' place, around 11 am. i stayed in bed watching TV while i was waiting for him to get back. but then at some point i fell asleep again and woke up at 3 pm! wtf!  hopefully i wont wake up that late tomorrow.

so i wasnt sure what to eat at chris place, i dident know what he had, if it was all junk food or not. but luckly i found some frozen broccoli, and the only think that wasnt meat or chicken was some fishsticks. I knew i dident want to eat the bread coverd part, so fried the fishsticks a little so i could get the bread cover off, and then i just fried the fish filés. and boild the broccoli.
now let me tell you, when you take of the cover of fish sticks you realise there isnt much fish there! i had three small fish sticks, i wasnt sure what kind of fish it was, but it was white.

unfortunatly i dont have a picture, because i left my camera at home, but for your visuall pleasure i DID take the time to draw you a picture! haha excuse my lack of drawing skills.

lunch? (omg) - 3 boild broccoli heads, 3 small fish filés, 1 glass of water.

haha see what i do for you ppl!. 

my excersise today was one hour dance class. *YAAY FOR DANCE!* its fun=D

then when i came home i had a bowl of cheerios cerial with banana slices and milk.   nice little dinner =D
i dident take a picture, *BAD SARINA!*. but im not going to draw that!


im hungry right now, but i dont want to eat, so im just chewing gum after gum haha.

ciao!

So yet again im writing about yesterday. So i managed to stay up all night and all day, however i STILL woke up late, well i woke up, then i watched tv and fell asleep again [do'h]

So yesterday i decided to have a big breakfast, and a smaller dinner. ( apparently lunch just isn't excisitng in my life)

it ended up being a BIG breakfast! never had that much before.

Breakfast- 2 whole wheat toasts, with cheese and tomato slices. 1 small bowl of oatmeal, 1 cup of greentea.



then later that day i went to chris' place and spent the night. and suprisingly i wasnt hungry through out the day. I guess breafast is a good thing!. so i basicly only had breakfast yesterday. BUT it was a BIG breakfast!

Yesterday's intake

Breakfast- A bowl of cherios with  milk


* i also had 0.5 L of water.
* then at 6 pm i had an eccpressochoco from the automat at wadköpings utbildnings center.

Dinner- 1 oven baked thai quorn filé
               2 boild potatos
               a bunch of oven baked greenbeans
               1can diet coke


I had nothing fried today, *yaay* haha everything was oven baked and the potato (over) boild.

im staying up all night, so ive had 2 powerkings.


The reason why im staying up all night is because i cant fall asleep untill like 4-5 am, and falling asleep at that time makes me wake up really late which makes me miss the whole day. So i figured staying upp all night will make me fall asleep early tomorrow.

its 09.45 am now( tuesday), so obviously im writing as if it was yesterday =P. i'll write later tonight of what my intake is for the day.
              

So for lunch i had

rice with a greenbean & potato stew.

for dinner i had this:

todaydays intake.

shrimp sallad with 3 slices of whole wheat baguett ( at la baguett)
1 bottle of water 0.5 L
1 small caffe latte caramell
4 ballerina cookies.
1 bottle of water 0.5 L

todays excersise was 1 hour dance class. at the end i blacked out for 2 seconds while we went though the dance, it was scary. but i was super dehydrated. and i sweat alot.

Fluid Pushes Fluid- the more you drink the more you need water.

That was my day, i woke up, went to town to meet my friend, walked around. had my shrimp sallad. and then we went to dance class. and i came home. yaay lol my days arent verry eventfull.

lets start off with todays intake.

Lunch-A plate with 1/4 rice with 3 tablespoons of yogurt based curry souce and 2 quorn dogs.
Dessert-1 piece of wild berry cake
Dinner- half a bowl of rice mixed with lenses and raisens ( persian rice mix)
Snack- 2 slices of whole wheat bread with philadelphia paprika on.


other than that ive had some juice and a bunch of throat pastelles because i have been caughing up my lungs the whole day.

woah i ate ALOT today!

So today i havent done anything, just played some sims 2, watched Enchanted ( good movie), watched tv. went to the store to buy something for my throat.

ive been so lazy. but hey thats what sundays are for right?

I know i have to start drinking water again. Like i used to do. I always carried around a water bottle to school and i drank water constantly. I know its good for me. So i know i need to start with that.

tomorrows monday. and mondays means a new beginning. So as of tomorrow im going to start with my water bottle again!

im thankfull for any kind of tips and suggestions.  like i want to eat more fish, but what kind of fish should i buy? and how much does it cost? i like white fish. but i have never bought fish before, other than fish sticks =P. but those arnt good for you.

i need more protiene and veggies in my diet. so please if you guys have any suggestions just keep em' coming in! im thankfull for all of them =D

okeey so this is my intake today.

14-15 pm a bowl of wooked veggies & rice with soy souce.
after that i dident do much eating..
1 can of poweking.
then througout the day i had some sour coated alghrens bilar ( they are SOO good!)

my family decided to go and get pizza and i said i dident want any because i wasnt hungry, but i said i wanted a can of diet coke. DO YOU KNOW WHAT THEY BROUGHT ME? ofcourse you dont, thats why you are reading this. they bought me a shrimp sallad. DID I ASK FOR A FREAKING SHRIMP SALLAD??!?! NOOO!! ALL I WANTED WAS A CAN OF DIET COKE. and you know what....?  THEY DIDENT EVEN BRING ME THE CAN OF DIET COKE!..  yet another example of how they bring me stuff i havent asked for!   ofcourse i couldent say anything. so i said thanx and had 2/3 of it. what was i supose to say? i dident want them to have spend like 50 kr in vain.

IM SO SICK OF THIS!.

so yeah add a freaking shrimp sallad to my intake.

my excersise to day was 4 hours of cleaning and remodeling my room. *yaay*

So lets start with talking about what i consumed yesterday, to try to get a overview of how im eating

so i dident actually do alot of eating yesterday, more drinking.
i had:
1 can redbull
1 can diet coke
1 carrot stick
2 cucumber sticks ( dipped in some kind of dip)
 
then i went to klaras and had
3 xider manadine chilie
1 sex on the beach ( which was disgusting)

then when i came home i was hungry, so i had a bowl of pasta with tomato souce 40 % pasta 60% souce haha

well as you can see im not eating consistent meals.  maybe this was just momentarly.

thanx for all the comments.